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Mark Pierre Vorkosigan / "Peter Kane" ([personal profile] jacksonian) wrote in [community profile] barrayar2016-01-22 09:49 pm

I am junking up this beautiful community with this junk

All the other starters are so beautiful but instead I'm coming in and ruining everything with this useless post with this sad sack
Comment to this post and I will write you something
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-25 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[Relaxing him by talking about his likelihood of assassination is new, but Gregor supposes that it must be a familiar topic for him. In any case, he doesn't mind. It's sort of... freeing, in a way, to air out all these black thoughts no one else likes to hear without wincing, or shooting back some further darkness.

This one just accepts them, matter-of-fact.]


Ha, no. [Story of his life, that problem.] But that's probably for the best, or we'd be computers. You've no idea how relieved I was that my oath-binding only works on sincere oaths.

[Seeing him take another omelette provokes Gregor into pushing the yogurt and sliced fruit in his direction, too.]
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-25 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Probably. If it's any consolation, we can act as a check on each other. Keep tabs.

[Gregor seems quite comfortable with this for someone who'd stared in horror at his file upon first arrival. That's what months living half in Miles's head will do you. Acclimation for anyone.

He's glad to see him slow down on eating, if only for that it means less implied worrying. Maybe he'll adjust as time goes on. Gregor is inferring some ugly things about his upbringing from this-- he'd never truly thought about how skinny Miles is for his size, since it's so obviously just from his absurd amount of energy and flinging himself pell-mell at everything, but...]
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-25 11:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[Aside from his policy of honesty with him, there's just no point in lying about this.]

Pretty much. With everyone else it's more like what I've set up with you. [Gregor nods at him. Just a little bit open, enough to knock on his door, so to speak, or feel if anything major happens.] But Miles... well, you have to know we grew up together. There's really nothing we were hiding from each other in the first place.

[Which is a lie at this point but Gregor is still firmly in deny-my-feelings-existence phase.]
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-26 12:22 am (UTC)(link)
You're not wrong. But it's... different, with Miles. Even before this, we trusted each other implicitly. We had no fear of betrayal. Or even rejection, really.
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-26 12:55 am (UTC)(link)
Because I was young and stupid enough to believe them. It was unfounded.

[There's just enough self-directed sourness there to show that he really does castigate himself over that.]
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-26 05:07 am (UTC)(link)
[The funny thing about truly stable trust is that Gregor doesn't feel at all threatened about having it questioned by an outside source. Plus, he's giving him an uncommonly free pass to ask questions, given the circumstances. It's a unique situation so he's getting unique dispensation on prying.

He swallows a bite of food before responding.]
You don't know how stable something is until you've tested the foundation. We survived that, ergo, I feel sure of our future survival.
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-26 02:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[Gregor straightens up, putting his fork down and settling his hands, eyes alert.]

Go on.
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-26 03:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah. A worthy payment.

[Slowly, a wide smile overtakes Gregor's face. It has the certain color of satisfied pleasure to it.]

I so rarely get to make orders like that, you know. Unequivocally good ones. I'll enjoy it.
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-26 03:22 pm (UTC)(link)
It's a little academic, seeing as I'm not sure I'll remember any of this when I next have the opportunity, but if you're all right with intent and hypotheticals-- yes.

[Gregor is young enough here to still find exerting his authority a bit dizzying, both in the scary and exhilarating sense, admittedly.]

You said yourself it's a trade, isn't it? Though you realize, after this is agreed, the table's wiped clean. We can only make new debts from here, ad infinitum.
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-26 03:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[That anger would probably alarm him a bit if Gregor thought he had any chance of acting on it. No, more accurately, trying to act on it. Trust is springing up all on its own.]

No, no, that's not what I mean at all. I've no argument. What I mean is...

[His voice softens.] From here, we'll have to go forward.
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-26 03:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Am I?

[Gregor lets that sit in silence for a few long seconds, humor wiped from his expression, softly inviting him to consider just what it is Gregor is getting, in scope.

But, so as not to press him too hard, he eventually adds,]
As for investment of troops, I'd just put Miles on it. Well, I'd have Simon put Miles on it. He'd be thrilled. Over the moon, in fact, to do something for you. Win-win-win.
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-26 03:59 pm (UTC)(link)
You didn't think he made up Admiral Naismith for your benefit, did you? [Gregor asks dryly.] It's a real fleet. About five thousand personnel.

You should hash it out with him-- he'd love to plan the whole thing out with your input, I'm sure, as a mental exercise.

[Can you be a go-between for brothers? Gregor really does wonder if this is how Cordelia feels at all times.]
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[personal profile] vorbarra 2016-01-26 04:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Quite.

[Gregor watches him for a moment, but breaks the possible tension of that by diverting himself to drink his tea, and go back to his food.]

Does that resolve the matter for you, then?

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