[ There's again a long pause, emotional noise muffled as he thinks about that. Finally, he gives the honest answer.
I don't know.
Back there, back...He'd had a purpose, and he'd understood his purpose. He'd known what to do. At all times he'd known what to do. And - Yeah. The medical procedures had been torturous. And the discipline he'd had to maintain - the sort of discipline that had been forced on him - had been...It had been hard. And the thought of them coming here, the thought of falling back in with the Komarrans - It fills him with complete terror, and again he's grateful that there's no way it can happen, that self-preservation and that oath will keep him from even being tempted to return. Because if he's found again, it'll be...awful. But -
no subject
I don't know.
Back there, back...He'd had a purpose, and he'd understood his purpose. He'd known what to do. At all times he'd known what to do. And - Yeah. The medical procedures had been torturous. And the discipline he'd had to maintain - the sort of discipline that had been forced on him - had been...It had been hard. And the thought of them coming here, the thought of falling back in with the Komarrans - It fills him with complete terror, and again he's grateful that there's no way it can happen, that self-preservation and that oath will keep him from even being tempted to return. Because if he's found again, it'll be...awful. But -
But are things better? ]