[ He stays bright then, as bright and brilliant as his soul will allow. Still radiating nothing but acceptance and love and that crackle of desire too. He'd jump in and fight all of Gregor's issues right now if he thought that would help; the tempting thought crosses his mind before he decides no, that's an extremely bad idea. He'll stay here as close as Gregor will allow him, but not cross that invisible boundary of privacy.

(He knows that loneliness, though. It doesn't run as deeply for Miles, given his family and his love life thus far, but it's a tributary to his deep well of self-worth. In the end, they both believe that they will be alone. Miles is here to furiously disprove that for both of them.)

Physically, he snorts. ] So what? I should go fool around with other men before coming back to you? [ Miles shakes his head just picturing it. He wants Gregor and only Gregor, dammit. Everything else falls away into nothing in comparison. ] We'll find out together. What we want, both of us.